Rendering of the heart portal or hridayam

Intro to Repost 2

This is my third time posting this article because the subject is so germane, so important.

How many people know how to love themselves? A hand over there. One over there.

And yet it’s one of the most important subjects I can think of. But let me write an accompanying article – a part 2, for tomorrow – and go into the subject in more detail.

Intro to Repost 1

I was about to write the article that follows, when I saw that I’d already written it. And written it in almost the same way I was going to write it again.

Great minds think alike. Take both of mine. Please.

I’m posting it again because I consider the most urgent problem we as individuals and lightworkers face today, amidst all the chaos, is now and will always be to love ourselves.

As lightworkers, in my view, we’re here to love as we do our specific assignments. I know for myself that I’m in no condition to love others until I feel filled enough with love myself – I’m talking about real love; not what passed for it in the Third Dimension.

Sending love when I’m not “feeling it” would be like a water main that isn’t working properly and is giving only a trickle. So it’s a prerequisite, in my books, for lightworkers to know at least one way of loving ourselves, whether doing the exercise has ignited the fire yet or not.

Thus, actually knowing how to love ourselves – something I never knew or would have guessed until shown (1) – is for me of the highest priority.

What Does It Mean to Love Yourself?

December 12, 2022

https://goldenageofgaia.com/2022/12/12/what-is-it-to-love-yourself/

Digger asks:

“Do you love yourself?

“What is it to love yourself?” (2)

And I’m at the back of the class, waving my hand in the air. “Ask me, teach. Ask me.”

May I? Thanks, Digger.

For me, it means something very particular.

Before I knew what love was (prior to a heart opening on March 13, 2015), if you’d have said to me, love yourself, I’d have been stumped.

I’d wonder if loving myself required doing anything. I’d approach it very logically, like preparing for summer camp. I’d make a list of things I need to do to love myself.

Change my diet. Exercise. Get more sleep.

Does loving myself require effort, push, shove, and so on? Does it require commitment? On and on I’d go, eliminating one thing after another.

Looking back, I now see that everything I was doing was only having the effect of tiring me out until I gave them all up. By then, I’d forgotten why I was doing them. (Does this process sound familiar?)

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On March 13, 2015, my heart burst open, and I actually found myself immersed in a tsunami of love, to use Linda Dillon’s term. (3) OMG. THIS is what all the saints are praising.  THIS is what they’re giving up everything for.

Fast forward to the present: Even if my heart door is open much less now compared to 2015, I can still experience the love flowing up from my heart when I breathe it up.

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Stop the camera.

Love flows.  (4) And the most convenient place for us to tap into its copious flow is through the door of the heart (the hridayam). On the other side, which is higher-dimensional, love flows in a river and that river itself flows to the sea – the Ocean of Love (7th Dimensional), which I’ve also been gifted to experience. (5)

OK, roll the camera again.

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I can take that love from my heart and swish it around my body and my field of awareness. Doing that has me feel tremendously revived.

I don’t want to exaggerate. I’m not somehow “saved” or “redeemed” (i.e., ascended);  (6) just perceptibly restored and uplifted.

I maintain that this very process is what’s being invited when the sages say “love yourself.” Draw the love up from your own heart with your inbreath and wash yourself with it on your outbreath. I believe Mary Magdalene is offering a version of this here:

“Do you realize that this tool of Love can be wielded with utter power and abandon [Steve: on yourself], knowing that with every swipe of it, you become more whole, more entrenched in your divine nature — more whole within all your aspects, and more capable of absorbing and integrating all parts and aspects of you, multidimensionally, as well as with all aspects of Christ Consciousness/God Consciousness?” (7)

Whoa, boy! Sign me up!

But we have to actually do what she recommends.

Of course your “divine nature” is pure and innocent already.

“More whole” for me means that purity and innocence is more revealed, more uncovered, more freed from our overburden – our vasanas or core issues. (8)

Baptize yourself with this love: This is the real River Jordan.

Imagine doing this with yourself. At first you may get nothing, but each time you do it you’re priming the pump.

Thanks for asking the question, Digger.

Footnotes

(1) On the heart opening, see:

• “Submerged in Love,” March 14, 2015, in An Ascension Ethnography at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/An-Ascension-Ethnography-5.pdf, and after.
• “Activating the Wellspring – Part 1/2,” March 14, 2015, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/03/14/activating-the-wellspring-part-1-2/.

(2)  “Digger: Know Thyself,” December 11, 2022, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/?p=340835.

(3) Linda Dillon.

(4)  Cf. Archangel Michael: Love is the energy of the universe. It is the energy of the Mother. And it moves constantly, continually, eternally, infinitely. So, to have an experience of love, it [must move] through you. (“Archangel Michael: Go with the Ebb and the Flow of Love,” channeled by Linda Dillon, April 3, 2014, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/04/05/archangel-michael-go-with-the-ebb-and-the-flow-of-love/.)

(5) See “Love is the Way, the Truth, and the Life,” May 6, 2014, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/05/06/love-is-the-way-the-truth-and-the-life/
. This experience and others like it must have been toned down or otherwise I’m not sure how I’d still have elected to be here.

(6) 2025: I’ve changed my mind more recently. Of course that was an Ascension experience: I ended up in the Seventh Dimension; by definition, how could the experience be otherwise than ascended?

(7) “Mary Magdalene via Fran Zepeda: You Are Pure Divine Love,” November 14, 2015, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/11/14/mary-magdalene-via-fran-zepeda-pure-divine-love/.

(8) See Vasanas: Preparing For Ascension by Clearing Old Issues at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/Vasanas-Preparing-for-Ascension-R13.pdf.

The Self lives in the deepest reaches of the heart, the Seat of the Soul. Credit: Ute Possega Rudel

How do we, how can we love our selves?

If we don’t love ourselves … and I don’t mean intellectually … “oh yah, I love myself” … I mean actually giving ourselves tangible, high-quality love, then it limits how much of ourselves we have to give to others.

“High-quality” seems like a better term than “higher-dimensional.” The love we’ll be in after Ascension will probably be seventh-dimensional. It’s a love that will change our lives, knock our socks off, blow our hair back, even when we don’t feel it, but just remember it.

Let’s pretend that I can buy a block of love as I can a block of butter. Since it’s beyond value, we just simply give it.

But the grocer says to us, I have no butter today. I have only margerine made from canola oil and it’s a week old. “Eeee-yuk!”

That is lower-quality love, like the kind we experience in this dense 3/4D layer of reality (I think 3D is the densest for beings in form).

Whatever love we feel in our present surroundings bears only a distant resemblance to higher-quality love, like an economy car to a Mazzerati.

This love, according to Michael, (1) is seventh dimensional.  It revolutionizes our life in a moment – the moment the heart door (hridayam) opens and the tsunami of love hits us, it alters our lives forever. (2)

Although all experiences short of Ascension pass, this one culminates in another passing experience of being a point of Light in an Ocean of Love.

I could not let go of my individuation. I did not become the Ocean of Light – the end of all existence. If I did, I would not be here to tell of it.

And my job is to be here and tell of it.

But that’s what awaits us. It just occurred to me that this experience, being Seventh Dimensional, was Ascension. Michael kept telling me I was already ascended and I did not believe him. But of course, it now makes sense.

Back to how to love oneself.

We’re following a process now. I have to go back a bit and pick up the thread.

In my own heart opening on March 15, 2025, after an immense explosion which must have cleared my remaining obstacles, I found myself in the tsunami of love I earlier mentioned.

The heart turns out to be an interdimensional portal. Triggered by the kundalini reaching the fourth chakra, the heart door opens.

The fourth chakra acts like a light switch only it opens the door of the spiritual heart rather than turning on a light.  (It’s the “open sesame.”)

It’s also by the way where the Self, the Atman, the Pearl of great price “resides.” More on that another time. (3)

A river of love blew through me, without it having any perceptible mass. It took with it every care and concern I had, every agenda and promise, every bit of identity…. Everything was swept away leaving me clean.

Stop the camera. Let’s now cut to me years later. My heart has … ehnnnn … more or less closed. But it’s open enough that I have the ability to draw that wonderful, nourishing love up from my heart and do things with it.

I draw it up on my in-breath, and put it to work on the pause, and then breathe it out to (the world, the one I love, a friend).  First I’ll explain more about how that works to love myself and then let me cite Michael on this very matter.

On the pause I briefly borrow the love and swirl it around my field of awareness. I paint everything with it. I throw it around, as Mary Magdalene once said, with wild abandon) and then I send it on to its destination.

I submit that that is the most useful interpretation I know to the term “love yourself.” I do know it works for me.

OK, now over to Michael, to give my experience some archangelic back-up.

First of all, love must flow, Michael tells us. To experience it, it must flow through us.

Archangel Michael: Love is the energy of the universe. It is the energy of the Mother. And it moves constantly, continually, eternally, infinitely. So, to have an experience of love, it [must move] through you.  (4) [My emphasis.]

AAM: Love is a fluid energy. It has need to flow and so when it does not flow it becomes… Well, as you put it, it be can become dry and brittle. It has need to be given and received above, below, within, without and in every which way. (5)

Without you and me, love would return to Original Stillness, the One, the Arcturian Group tell us. It must flow.

Without individualized Divine Consciousness love would not exist because love is the energy of Divine Consciousness infinitely present, flowing, and connecting all ITs expressions. (6)

So, to return to our original question, for me “loving yourself” has a very specific meaning. It points to a tangible action and result.

This is how we love ourselves: We breathe love up from our hearts, swirl it around ourselves during the pause, and breathe it out to the world on the outbreath.

This instantly revives me. It may take a while for it to cause the heart door to blow open (or gently open) if it’s presently closed as it is for almost everyone.

But, believe me, I can think of nothing in life that’s more worthwhile than priming the pump with this exercise or another like it and seeing the heart open and an infinite and supremely-satisfying love flow.

Footnotes

(1) Steve: The space that I call transformative love, what dimension is it?

AAM: It is the Seventh Dimension. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Jan. 20, 2016.) (Hereafter, AAM.)

(2) See:

• “Submerged in Love,” March 14, 2015, in An Ascension Ethnography at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/An-Ascension-Ethnography-5.pdf, and after.
• “Activating the Wellspring – Part 1/2,” March 14, 2015, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/03/14/activating-the-wellspring-part-1-2/.

(3) See Possega-Rudel’s perceptive illustration of the situation, in the graphic at the head of this article.

Smaller than the smallest, greater than the greatest, this Self forever dwells within the hearts of all. (Swami Prabhavananda and Frederick Manchester, trans., The Upanishads. Breath of the Eternal. New York and Scarborough: New American Library, 1957; c1948, 18.) (Hereafter, UPAN.)

He who … sees [the Atman] inhabiting the lotus of the heart, living among physical elements, sees Brahman indeed. For this First-Born is the immortal self. (UPAN, 21.)

There in the ignorant heart … I dwell. (Sri Krishna in Swami Prabhavananda and Christopher Isherwood, trans., Bhagavad-Gita. The Song of God. New York and Scarborough: New American Library, 1972; c1944, 87.)

The Atman, which is pure consciousness, is the light that shines in the shrine of the heart, the center of all vital force. (Shankara in Swami Prabhavananda and Christopher Isherwood, Shankara’s Crest-Jewel of Discrimination. Hollywood: Vedanta Press, 1975; c1947, 63.)

I saw the Self, the Atman, the Pearl of great price in the deepest part of the heart on Sept. 18, 2018. However my experience was moderated. The Divine Mother said that, if it was not, I’d have gone off to the Himalayas to finish the job.

See:

• “Archangel Michael Explains What Happened at Xenia,” Sept. 22, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/09/22/archangel-michael-explains-what-happened-at-xenia/
• “The Heart is ‘the Seat of the Soul’,” December 17, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/12/17/the-heart-is-the-seat-of-the-soul/.

(4) AAM, Dec. 5, 2018.

(5) AAM, April 30, 2019.

(6) Arcturian Group, Jan. 19, 2025. Moreover the Arcturian Group tells us not to seek love from another as much as from our own hearts, where it resides and flows freely.

“The love or gratitude you seek may never come from those you may expect or want it from, but if you acknowledge and seek it from within– (I can never be separate from the Love I am, I am forever complete and whole because I AM) it will flow to you in ways and from places you least expect.” (The Arcturian Group via Marilyn Raffaele, June 19, 2022, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2022/06/19/the-arcturian-group-via-marilyn-raffaele-june-19-2022/.)

I’m adrift in reflection, Thank you for allowing me…. This is doing me a world of good:

All the fruits of this world are never going to satisfy us.

Take taste for instance. Taste occurs when a food substance passes over some receptors at the back of the throat. I taste the chocolate, say, as it passes over these receptors.

If I want to live in love and bliss, which I do, what am I to do? Have an endless flow of chocolate going down my throat?

Moreover, the taste of chocolate is there and then it’s gone.

But I want to live continuously in love and bliss.

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The ascended space – the space of the Fifth Dimension and higher – offers a love, and later a bliss, that is everything we want, have asked for, and have been seeking.  We won’t find it outside ourselves or in any sensory pleasures. We’ll find it flowing freely, like the air, inside the multidimensional portal that the heart is.

Higher-dimensional love is the most pleasurable thing you’ll ever have encountered. It’s what you wanted from massage, drugs, yoga, adrenalin sports – only a world beyond.

It’s so far beyond sexual orgasm – a heart opening is as if our whole body suddenly exploded and we were immersed in a totally-satisfying and never-ending artesian well of incomparable, fulfilling love for all and everything.

Ask for a heart opening. Our guides, abiding by the Law of Free Will, won’t give us what we don’t ask for.

But all that needs to remain knowledge shared by a few, the few who risk ridicule by communicating with and reading communications from ascended levels all the way up to the Divine Mother. Beyond whom there is no communicating. (1)

When the mockingbird media is gone, it may be safe for “nimble mammals” to peek out of their hidey-holes.  (2) The world may then be ready to hear about such things as the divine qualities and the wonderful gift of love that awaits us. (3)

Michael says he brings everyone to this blog who needs to read it.  I hope it continues to be that way. I have no desire to advertise and we live only by your donations.

Footnotes

(1) The Father does not speak. She is the Voice [Aum] of One crying in the wilderness.

That ringing in your ear? It’s not tinnitus. It’s the voice of Aum, the universal creative vibration, an aspect of the Mother.

On the nature of the Divine Mother, see:

• It’s All a Journey of Love: The Divine Mother in Her Own Words at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/Its-All-a-Journey-of-Love-R16.pdf
• “On the Nature of the Divine Mother” in All Paths Lead to the Mother at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2024/02/All-Paths-Lead-to-the-Mother-R4.pdf
• Grandeur Beyond Grandeur:
 Toward a Cross-Cultural Spirituality Vol. 3: The Trinity at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/06/Grandeur-Beyond-Grandeur-3-8.pdf

(2) On the emergence of the nimble mammals (us) and retreat of the dinosaurs (cabal), see:

• “Nimble Mammals 4; Brainless Dinosaurs ø” October 3, 2011, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/10/03/nimble-mammals-4-brainless-dinosaurs-0/
• “Nimble Mammals Becoming Nimbler,” December 19, 2013, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/12/19/nimble-mammals-becoming-nimbler/
• “Nimble Mammals Outlast the Dinosaurs,” September 22, 2019, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/09/22/nimble-mammals-outlast-the-dinosaurs/
  

For background, see “I Accuse,” January 1, 2019, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/01/01/i-accuse-2/ This blog was born as a cabal-fighting blog. That was before I met Michael.

(3)  On the divine qualities, see:

• On the Divine Qualities at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2024/02/On-the-Divine-Qualities-R5.pdf
• On the Nature and Significance of the Divine Qualities at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/Nature-and-Significance-of-the-Divine-Qualities-3.pdf

On transformative love, see Love Like We Never Imagined It to Be at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2024/09/Love-Like-We-Never-Imagined-It-to-Be-R15.pdf

Apparently, the lights are burning at CIA Langley tonight.

The CIA are said to be meeting to discuss how to get around Donald J. Trump’s exercise of constitutional authority. CNN’s Anderson Cooper thought that was an understandable reaction. (1)

I respond to that by reminding myself that, given the deep-state’s tendency to hold on till the end, I have a five-point list that I’d need satisfied before I’d relax. The five points are:

(A) Rescue

(B) Removal

(C) Revelation

(D) Restitution

(E) Reconciliation

(A) Rescue.

We haven’t yet rescued all the trafficked women and children underground and shut those operations down forever.  Until we do, that remains my number one focus.

And it includes paying attention to other victims of the deep state in other catastrophes such as the Lahaina HI DEW attacks and Hurricanes Helene and Milton.

I won’t accept anyone saying we don’t have the cash to rescue them because (i) 650 planeloads of gold were brought to Cheyenne Mtn from the Vatican some years ago and (ii) Illuminati wealth is being sequestered by Executive Order 13818 and is intended to be redistributed to the people.

Well, now’s the time to redistribute some of it to deep-state victims.

Perhaps let that be an urgent function of President Trump’s Truth and Reconciliation Commission.

(B) Removal.

The white-hat Global Military Alliance is taking down the cabal as we speak. I have no expertise in this area to be commenting.

One way or another, the followers of darkness will be leaving the Earth.

I oppose executing them. There’s no reason for doing it. They’ll leave soon enough under their own steam. (2)

(C) Revelation.

Somehow we need to get the word out on what the dangers are that we face (and faced). Many people remain asleep to them.

We need to do it without severely traumatizing people. I spent eight years listening to tales of abuse and torture as a refugee decision-maker. I can take some of the hideous photos and videos I’ve seen.  But some people seeing material like that for the first time could suffer a serious emotional breakdown.

So how do we get the message across to the public at large?  The full scope of our danger needs to be known if our women and children are to be able to walk the streets, day and night, safe from being kidnapped, tortured, and killed.

Revelation is in my area and the problem I just outlined is the one we’ll have to resolve.

(D) Restitution. 

What restitution is there for the loss of the love of your life? None.

Nevertheless, if we’re to return to the center again, to the heart, the place where peace and happiness reside, we’ll have to settle outstanding debts, whatever they’re fairly determined to be.

So the election of Donald J. Trump, as seen from my outsider’s point of view, is just what I consider to be the beginning of the work ahead of all of us around the globe.

We need to complete each step in a manner that sees that it never arises again, as it has consistently throughout our history. That is, there have always been cliques or elites who’ve wanted to translate the influence of their wealth into social power and control.

The work has just begun. And this time we must end the merry-go-round.

This time we lightworkers have come, have incarnated, to see that a thousand years of higher-dimensional love and peace begin again and reign on Planet Earth.

Footnotes

(1)  See  “From Darkness Unto Light, Nov. 10 Update – 2,” November 10, 2024, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2024/11/10/from-darkness-unto-light-nov-10-update-2/.

Interestingly Anderson Cooper is named as having been executed, on the lists of executions circulating on the alternative press.

Gen. Milley is also reported to have been executed.  See “Mark Milley Hanged at GITMO,” Real Raw News, Oct. 15, 2023, at https://realrawnews.com/2023/10/mark-milley-hanged-at-gitmo/.

(2) See:

• Stop the Executions! at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/Stop-the-Executions-7.pdf
• The End of Darkness on Earth: the Dawning of the Light at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2022/11/The-End-of-Darkness-5.pdf
• The Hidden War: Stopping the Illuminati at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/01/The-Hidden-War-R8-1.pdf
• Not Everyone will Choose to Come with Us: The Time of Separation at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/01/Not-Everyone-will-Choose-to-Come-with-Us-R6.pdf
• Some will Choose not to Ascend: The Time of Separation at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2022/11/Some-Will-Choose-Not-to-Ascend-4.pdf